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....the bunnies are tokin it up!
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[22 Jan 2008|07:42pm] |
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I'm going to dodgeball tonight. It's gonna be fun. I was gonna stay the night at a friend's house, but I think there's too much sexual tension between us, and considering I'm dating someone, it would be bad to do stuff. I'm glad I make the right decisions.
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| Spaghettio's at 5 in the evening! |
[18 Jan 2008|05:38pm] |
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Well, I was getting ready to go out tonight, but then I realized I was hungry. I figured, eat before you get in the shower, and then you'll be set. So, I hit the pantry, and find that my two choices for this day are Cup O' Noodle or Spaghettio's. Well, I chose the latter. Now, I was planning on still jumping in the shower, and then eating, but Spaghettio's can be terribly messy, and I'm planning on wearing white tonight, so I decided it would be best to sit down and eat BEFORE I showered. So, that's what I'm currently doing now.
Tonight I'm gonna go play dodgeball on Broadway for a while. Not really looking forward to how cold it is, but I'll survive....I hope! HAHA! After that, my friend Thisiserika is going to drop me off at the bubble tea place I used to work at, and I'm gonna go party with the squints (those are the asians that work there). Well, I'm gonna finish eating now. If I learn anything fun on Wikipedia, I'll let ya know. Peace!
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[18 Jan 2008|03:02am] |
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Holy Crap, it's been awhile! Man, I just saw the movie Cloverfield, and it freaking BLEW MY MIND!!!!!! It was so rad! Oh god, I had to write about it, so BAM! I just did!
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| Good News |
[23 Jan 2006|09:03am] |
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Even and I both got jobs at Abercrombie at Bellesquare. They called us last night.
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| Nerdology |
[19 Jan 2006|09:16am] |
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I'm going downtown to buy comic books. Don't laugh.
The CD in my walkman (yes, I said walkman, and not iPod....fuck you) is O-town.
I take WAY too many pictures of myself.
I need a boyfriend.
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| Confidence Rising |
[17 Jan 2006|05:51pm] |
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So I applied and went to a group interview at Abercrombie & Fitch today. Even and I decided to get applications, and the girl informed us of group interviews on Tuesdays and Fridays, so we applied instore and then hung around for the interview. I think it went well. We had a nice group, and the girl that was interviewing us was hella cute, and really nice. There's a possibility I may get the job due to my availability, but who knows...only time will tell. Either way, I'm just glad I finally got out there. I feel empowered to be able to apply more places! HAHA! I'm such an uber nerd...
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| Son of a FUCK! |
[17 Jan 2006|01:20am] |
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Okay, I'm sexually frustrated, and now I really want to be in a relationship! WHAT THE HELL?! One minute I'm a happy little slut, the next I'm a hopeless romantic. When did they decide that was fair? I mean, I was all good just running from guy to guy, bumpin ugly, and now I long for more. Someone to hold me, walk around downtown, grocery shopping.....*sigh*. Thing is, there is no one worthy in Seattle. They're all just disgusting little sluts. Even the "hott guys" aren't all that hott to me, which is rather funny if you think about it, cuz those were all I wanted for the longest time. Moving on...
Comic books. Yeah, I said it, comic books. I love them, and can't live without them, but things have gotten bad. Dylan and I decided to nerd out our lives by making ourselves into comic book heroes, and well, now I'm dreaming about this shit. I slept today for, I shit you not, close to 21 hours. The entire time I was having super hero dreams. Whether I was using my powers, or just having a romantic relationship with another mutant, I was still dreaming about it. Damn you Dylan.....
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| Met a guy. |
[15 Jan 2006|06:00am] |
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So I've been talking to this guy on myspace for a while now, and we've just been having a very random conversation. Something about getting married and psycho hair dressers.....anywayz, he's just cool. Well, it turns out he was at the club on Saturday, and he recognized me. He stopped me as I passed him, and we ended up talking for a bit. He's AMAZINGLY cute, and works at A&F downtown. I dunno, he's in my "Top 8" on myspace, tell me what you think. Anywayz, he tells me he's had a crush on me, but thinks it's weird cuz the only time we've ever met was tonight. I don't care, cuz he's interested, and so am I. HAHA!
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| Bleeding Pain |
[10 Jan 2006|10:19pm] |
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I sit in my room all alone.
A lighter in one hand, a knife in the other.
As I click the lighter on, I hold the knife over the flame.
I watch as the soft shape of the fire coats the blade in it's warmth.
I set the lighter down, and hold my wrist flat out, bottom side up.
I lower the blade down, and apply pressure to my skin.
As I drag the knife across my arm, crimson liquid flows freely.
I'm blinded by white....white hot pain, and think about what brought me to this point.
Fear, loneliness, rejection, insecurity, misunderstanding, confusion...
And as I lay down the knife, and wipe away the blood, I reflect on what I've done.
The pain will pass, the cut will heal, but the complexity of emotion will still remain.
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| Hooray! |
[09 Jan 2006|08:16am] |
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I have a date tonight! Party at Neighbours!!!! Special invite only. ;)
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[07 Jan 2006|03:45am] |
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Okay, nothing's better than an ego boost, am I right? Well I definately got my fair share of that today!
To start off, I went to my Hip-Hop Aerobics class today for the first time (I was sick the first day, which was Wednesday), and I had a freakin BLAST! Shit, the things we do are so easy for me, it's hott! Anyways, well this black girl infront of me just turned around and said, "you're adorable!". Honestly, that made me blush. I love how girls just love gays. I'm one of four guys in the class, and I'm the only fag.....isn't that weird? So yeah, that was a very mild start.
Moving on to the club, where Even and I had a reasonable beginning. First I talked to the guy that sells the tickets. I've had my eye on him for weeks, and actually talked, and danced, with him last week. I stupidly didn't get his number, and too add to my stupidity, I showed up to the club the following night drunk off my ass, and probably made a fool of myself. Luckily for me, being a rabbit (it's a zodiac thing), he told me I didn't make a fool of myself, and he was really flirty. SCORE ONE FOR COLIN! (Keep track of the score kids, cuz it gets pretty good). So Even and I go and sit down, waiting to get into the music, but between us both being a little tired and the fact that the club was playing crappy music tonight, we weren't really into it. Even decided he wanted to change, so we went back to the car for him to change, and then returned to the club.
Honestly, Even never felt the music tonight, but I went and bought us red bull's so that maybe he's perk up. For a while, he did, but it didn't last. Um...let's speed this up, okay? So we started dancing with a couple gays from his work, and then there was a gay that likes me that is friends with the guy Even likes, and he started dancing with us. THAT MAKES TWO FOR COLIN! Then he danced with Even, and I danced with his friend that had been eyeing me the entire night. THREE FOR COLIN! Of course I returned to the ticket guy, who's name is Tim, and danced with him a little bit. FOUR FOR COLIN! At some point I took of my t-shirt and just danced in my wife beater (by removing my shirt, I lost my earings....sniffy...), and that got me all the looks. It was nice, cuz I'm insecure about my shoulder scars, but I didn't feel insecure, and apparently the boys didn't mind. So now I've got this guy that can shake his ass nicely totally eyeing me, but he was too chicken to come up to me. HALF POINT FOR COLIN! So I danced with Tim again...to speed this up, about 5 times in total. SEVEN AND A HALF FOR COLIN! HAHA!
This is where it get's good though. This one guy, who is friends and apart of the elite hott group of guys that should be models, grabbed my arm as I walked by him, and started to dance with me. He told me that I was cute and adorable, and was shoving his package against me. Yes, he was gorgeous, and smelled GREAT, but I didn't kiss him, and when I saw my ex, I asked him to excuse me. THAT'S RIGHT, I turned down one of the hottest guys in the club! Let's say 2 EXTRA POINTS FOR COLIN=NINE AND A HALF! It's not that I wasn't interested, it's just the fact that I'm into Tim. There was also a black guy that was all up in me that I had to push away, but I don't really want to count him.
All in all, it was a freaking GREAT night. It's nice to finally feel good about the way I look...I just hope I haven't sacrificed who I am to be what I think I should be.
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| Itchy... |
[03 Jan 2006|10:52pm] |
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So I've been going tanning with Even, and I got burned today. I've been burned before, but this one itches massively! Grr....*scratch scratch* I hope it goes away by tomorrow, or I'm gonna itch myself raw....
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| DORK! |
[03 Jan 2006|12:17pm] |
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Okay, so I bussed my ass over to the community college today to go to my class. It's Monday, Wednesday, and Friday...10:30-11:20am. The reality of the matter.....today's Tuesday. Yeah, I bussed there for nothing. Grr....whatev.
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[01 Jan 2006|11:39pm] |
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I got my STD screen results back.....
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"all test look good".
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| Um....wow.... |
[01 Jan 2006|11:18pm] |
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There's nothing like waking up one morning surrounded by 13 other people, and not being able to remember parts of the night. Yep, Colin brought in the New Year with a bang!
See, I originally had plans with the family, but apparently things didn't quite work out, so we ended up just doing dinner, and I was free at about 10pm. This all seems fine except for the fact that now I had to try and make plans at the last minute. Lucky for me, my best bud Even had invited me out if I could get free, so I went with him to a party up on Broadway.
Oh man, it may take several bitch beers to get me all lush, but it only takes two glasses of wine, and I was plastered. It was interesting too, cuz I remember leaving the apartment with the group, and walking to the club, but I don't remember getting in, anything that happened inside, or getting out. I remember the walk back to the place though, and even though me and another guy took a detour to go buy smokes at QFC (no, I don't smoke), we still beat the rest of the group back to the apartment.
So yeah, the night was weird, and I have no dignity, but I think I had fun, so that's all that matters. Now I just need to figure out who Joseph, Henry, Dwayne and Ryan are....
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| Dang! |
[30 Dec 2005|12:53am] |
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I need to catch up in this thing!
We last left off with the faulty nano. I ended up taking it back...and amazing enough, I was actually sad. My mom bought me a t-shirt at abercrombie to make me feel better...but of course I'm the only kid on the block not to have an iPod, so needless to say, I feel left out. Whatever...life's gay.
Just went tanning for the first time tonight. I think I may have burned a little, but now I'll have an easier time find a job at a place I'd want to work at. Even now, mere hours after I tanned, and I'm already too dark to work at American Eagle. HAHA! That's right, no one that works there has color unless their ethnic (Phil), so guess I'll have to look else where (not like a wanted a job there anywayz).
Even and I are going out for matching outfits for the club tomorrow. I know, sounds really gay, but it sounds really fun too! He's gonna buy this time, and when I have a job, I'll buy a second round. He just better be cooperative, or I'll rip his nuts off! HAHA!
Oooh, I dyed my hair last night, and have yet to be happy with it. I don't think it's the color, so much as it's the product I've been using. I've tried pomade, but that shit just doesn't cut it, so I've got to find something that works....and quick, cuz I don't want to look like shit at the club!
So, I have a feeling something bad is on the way, and I'm not sure what. Actually, I am, but I'm not ready to disclose this information. I guess I'll just have to keep ya'll posted, now won't I?
And finally, I've realized that I'm afraid of commitment. I've had opportunities to be with guys, and have been with some, but as soon as things get too close, I get uncomfortable. I hate it, cuz I want something nice, but I just don't think I'm ready. Ugh...whatever, living day to day and spending all of it with my friends, who are really my second family, is fulfillment enough for me.
P.S. Fuck you Dylan, you're so lucky! HAHA!
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| Ho-hum |
[26 Dec 2005|02:18pm] |
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Okay, so I got the three things I wanted for Christmas: an iPod, a digital camera, and Phil's on his way home....but my iPod isn't working with my compy, so needless to say, it's just a lifeless nano chilling in a box. How gay. I should just take it back, and buy $250 worth of things that would actually work. Gr...but my digi cam is sweet! Yeah, you can check out all my picture fun on my myspace, since you all have it! ;)
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| Oh no... |
[23 Dec 2005|05:57pm] |
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I was on the phone with Phil, and he was telling me about how things in Panama are starting to get really bad. I'm scared for him now, especially since while we were on the phone, we heard a gun shot. I was able to hear it through the phone, and he tells me how he can he gun shots and screams all throughout the night. I hope he comes home safely. I hope so much! That's my wish for Christmas...it would definately make my year.
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| Mmm... |
[23 Dec 2005|04:48pm] |
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Doctor Ryan....so scrumptious...
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[23 Dec 2005|11:26am] |
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Performance anxiety...how embarrassing...
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